Lucy in the sky with diamonds – new version

the original can be found here

The girl tries to clean up the drops of puke 

with her old handkerchief.

Then she unfolds it and sits.

What a silly girl!

She seems tired, she is so quiet.

She could not remember when

the last storm had broken 

In her sweet marmalade world.

She embraces sadness.

What an enigma! Nothing there.

So she puts on her smile.
Her face twists into a fishhook.

It is not like any smile

we would see on TV.

She puts on that devious smile.

And she looks up.

The sky is pale blue.

She tries to make it bluer,

Brighter, as she is.

But she can't.

The sky remains dim and indifferent.

Some people wave from a distance

and she is unsure whether

they are true or just a mirage.

Numb, she cannot feel anything.

The sky, the waves, herself.

A spurt of happiness spouts

in her frigid heart.

Like two bodies occupying the same spot,

Separate, the energies do not mingle.

She sees the boy approaching and cringes.

What a foolish girl!

He puts his hands between her thighs and twinkles.

But she averts her glance and looks down.

She thinks about suicide

In a green meadow, full of sunlight.

And that she has never been given

a diamond yet.

It's no fun at all, she knows she can't.

The boy starts fleeing.

The girl closes her eyes and imagines

what it would have been like if

she had not existed at all.

Now, she wishes she could blink 

in and out of existence.

What a preposterous girl!

Then, she decides to travel.

But she doesn't know if she is going to Estonia or not.

She feels Venus is no longer in Scorpio

Maybe Saturn is taking over.

What a lack of perspective, girl!

She goes to the verge of the lake

Crying, the tears ooze on her cheek toward her chin

and they blur the reflection of her own image

and that of the sky.

More tears and they are her present

to the sky under her. Her diamonds.

She wants to tell the world, but she keeps

Mute as if in a vow. That's her new voice.

She has started packing now.
Be sure you kiss her goodbye, I don't think she is ever coming back.